who you surround yourself with is who you become.

i tend to let things get in the way of God and what HE is doing in my life.

those things take place in my life and i cant help but buy into what is happening.

i miss the real point.

i miss what HE is doing.

i get lost in what is happening and i let things, people, and what i know is true slip away from me.

it isnt easy admiting what i miss.

it isnt easy trying to get back lost time or hating myself for messing up.

it is easy to get wrapped up in missing, and gaining lost time and hating myself.

but the worse part of messing up is what you messed up.

i have messed up a lot of things in my 23 years of life, but the greatest mistake I made was putting my best friend through hell.

and this isnt just any hell.

it was a hell i have been through before with other friends.

something i know hurts, and still i put someone else through it.

my heart always thinks about it.

i want to appologize allllll the time even though she has said it is over.

I am really writing this hoping it will allow my heart to appologize for the last time.

with this new move comes new things.

new love, life, and laughs.

I have never been so blessed by a friendship in my life.

it is daily.

I want to feel "caught" up for missed time and stop saying sorry.

I want to think about other things instead of being upset with myself.

so, i love you my friend.

you are an incredible person.

i have never been so proud of a friend in my life.

you have become something wonderful.

keep moving forward.

because someday you are going to change the world.

you are doing it right now, daily.

thank you for your continuous love, prayers, and support.

i love you. more than you'll ever know.